Today=Surprising

Today was the high school talent show. I didn't plan on signing up to begin with, but my friends talked me into it. So I finally gave in.
There were so many great acts today! When I heard that it would be judged, I decided not to care. I figured, Meh, people in the audience will judge me anyways, who cares about the judges?! I'm not in this to win!
And it's the truth, I was in it just to conquer my fear of singing, standing, talking, etc. in front of a whole bunch of people. And I have to say, when it was over, I was proud of myself.
I'm so hard on myself most of the time, but seeing the way people reacted, I don't know how to describe it.
It made me so simply happy that there were this many people acknowledging that Quiet Sara is actually more than Quiet Sara. (If that makes any sense).
And when I was up there, I forgot. I forgot about the hundreds of students, teachers, and parents watching me. I forgot about the lights that were blinding me. I forgot about everything. It was just me in my room, singing my brother to sleep. I wrote that song originally when my brother asked me to make up a song that was happy and sad at the same time. So I tried my best, and came up with this :)

When I was done with my song, so many people stood up and gave me a standing ovation. I thought I was going to just start crying right then and there. I've always loved singing, and when I got up there today I was listing things in my head that I had to redeem myself for:

1. Choking on my own spit while singing the National Anthem in front of all the veterans. 
2. In sixth grade when one of my "friends" said, "You aren't all that good at singing." 
3. Being so nervous while singing Blowing in the Wind for the guitar show, that I had to physically hold my own arm to keep it from shaking. 
4. Those awful youtube videos I posted (they are now deleted) from when I first started wanting feedback. I'll remake them at a later time. 
5. "Why would you post videos of your singing online?" Thanks for that, by the way. It gave me the anger I needed to get up there and sing. 

When I left school early, my phone started blowing up. "You did so good! I had no idea you could sing like that!" And then, my phone dinged again. When I opened the message? I found out that I had won.
I won something. 
I couldn't even sit still for about thirty minutes.
At the game tonight, people kept coming up to me and congratulating me. It was surreal.
I'm quiet. I tend to like staying unnoticed.  But today everyone seemed to see me. It was quite frightening, to say the least. But a good kind of scary :)
Don't  ever let anyone hold you back, do what you want and don't be too hard on yourself! Sometimes, you just have to accept the compliments. I learned this the hard way :)

Peace, Love, and Nervousness,
                                                  Sara

Bittersweet

I've heard this song at least a hundred times. Why? Because I play it on loop. And I listen to it over, and over, and over. Mostly it makes me feel like I need to curl up in a ball and cry in the corner.
At first, it was just the feeling of the song that made me sad. Then I learned the words.
Good lord.
I almost cried like a baby.
This song is about so many things; a brother grieving over the loss of his dead sister, a father going through a divorce, a grandfather grieving for the wife he lost to cancer.
All of it just struck a chord with me. Not only the message that this song sends, but the bittersweet tune, and the sleepy sounding vocals.
The whole song sounds to me like a lullaby. A lullaby whispered to a child that is already asleep.
It's beautiful in it's entirety, and I know you want to know what song it is :)

The song is Blood by The Middle East. A fantastic group that is now one of my favorites.

Here's the song!
And here are the lyrics, because I know that most of you will have trouble understanding him just like I did.

Older brother, restless soul, lie down

Lie for a while with your ear against the earth

And you’ll hear your sister sleep talking

Say, “Your hair is long but not long enough to reach

Home to me

But your beard

Someday might be”

And she woke up in a cold sweat on the floor

Next to a family portrait drawn when you were four

And beside a jar of two cent coins that are no good no more

She’ll lay it aside

Older father, weary soul, you’ll drive

Back to the home you made on the mountainside

With that ugly, terrible thing

Those papers for divorce

And a lonely ring

A lonely ring

Sit on your porch

And pluck your strings

Oh, and you’ll find somebody you can blame

And you’ll follow the creek that runs out into the sea

And you’ll find the peace of the Lord.

Grandfather, weary soul, you’ll fly

Over your life once more before you die

Since our grandma passed away

You've waited for forever and a day

Just to die

And someday soon

You will die

It was the only woman you ever loved

That got burnt by the sun too often when she was young

And the cancer spread and it ran into her body and her blood

And there’s nothing you can do about it now

Maybe that song made someone else cry :) I really love it, the emotion that it conveys is just outstanding. 

Well...

So I told you that I would get around to putting my songs on the blog and... here they are :) I'm a little new to actually letting people hear me, so tell me what you think! :) I wrote both of these not too long ago (which is why they still need a heck of a lot of improvements :/

I wanna hear the good, the bad, and the ugly! :)

Happy

I am in a really happy mood today fellow bloggers/readers/best friends that read my blog and don't know how to comment :)
First of all, I feel like I've been neglecting my songs page, so what am I doing right now? Updating it!
new bands to be seen on my play list (they aren't actually new bands, but I've discovered a recent love for them) are The Weepies, the Postal Service, Faded Paper Figures, and Hello Saferide :)
Getting to the rest of the post, I made a new page to post lyrics describing my life :) It's sort of a trial thing, but I plan on posting a line or two of a song on the bottom of each post from now on. I'll just put the over all collection of lyrics on that page :) LOOK HOW MANY SMILEY FACES!!! :D
Told you I'm in a good mood :)

Today is one of those days where I just feel like loving people as a whole, which is rare for me haha. Most days I wake up hating the world. But not today, and it's a Monday..that was rainy. I feel doubly accomplished.
I walked with paige, and then killed a few zombies. :) Those make any day better!

I just wanted to tell you about the lyrics and the songs, I'll post a "real" post later :)

Peace, love, and :),
                                                 ~Sara

And what about those shoes you’re in today?
They’ll do no good, on the bridges you burnt along the way. ~Jack Johnson

I actually finished something

Yesterday, my guitar teacher told us that we had to write a song using the words "October Moon" somewhere in the song. He did say that it had to be in AB AB format, but when I start writing something, I don't think about how it rhymes. As soon as I got home, I pulled out my guitar and wrote a song in about twenty minutes. It's by far the best song I've written yet and I'm pretty pleased with the way it turned out :)
Today I overcame some of the fear that I'd had in the past about singing in front of people. It was about time!
Even though my face turned bright tomato red a few times, I had fun playing the song. What made the whole day even better was when Megan asked if she could do the bass part of the song. Obviously I said, "Yeah!" And the bass made the song sound even better :) Kaitlin even did the back-up singing! I felt so accomplished :)So on Friday, the day that I dread most when it comes to guitar class, I'll actually be excited.
Because I won't be up there by myself, and I actually love this one :)

Once again, I'm really sorry that this is such a short post. I really wish I could have more time to blog during the day, but I don't :(

~Sara

Good songs :)

A while back I posted ten songs (I think) that were happy or encouraging. Today, I'm posting a few songs that may not really be happy at all. A few of them are actually pretty sad if you listen to the words.
Which is why I'm writing this! Really listen to the words in songs. Some of the lyrics might surprise you!

I'll Follow You Into the Dark- Death Cab for Cutie

Dance Me to the End of Love- The Civil Wars

Run- Snow Patrol

Roll Away Your Stone- Mumford and Sons

Out of these four songs, which was your favorite? :)

Ten happy/encouraging songs that you should listen to :)

I love every one of these songs :) They make me smile! Go ahead and listen to them all! Or a few :) It's up to you :)

1.  1234 by: Feist

2. You and I by: Ingrid Michaelson 

                                                                                               

3. Fidelity by: Regina Spektor...okay, it's not ALL that happy, but it has a happy beat :)

4. Everything Will Be Alright by: The Killers

5. Everybody by: Ingrid Michaelson... I know I already listed one of her songs, but I just love her!

6. Yet again, Here's Ingrid Michaelson's song: Be OK :) She has so many great songs!

7. She Is Love by: Parachute :) Love this band!

8. We've all heard this one :) Accidentally In Love, Counting Crows version :)

9. Haven't Met You Yet by: Micahel Buble, I love him!

10. In the spirit of Smosh, Here's Firetruckin' Perfect by: Pink :)

There you go! I hope you liked the songs :)