Tuesday, April 23, 2013

I’ve Decided

That I cannot wait to get away from high school and everything attached to it. I’m tired of so much immaturity and pettiness. How about we all grow up? Actually, I take that back. I’ve already grown up. I see my faults, and I am fully aware of them.

For those of you who don’t know, I’ve decided to graduate this December. When I decided this  few months ago, my friends (for the most part) as well as a certain teacher more recently, were angry with me and nagged me about all of the things I would be missing.

In actuality, I’ll be missing nothing.

I am so ready for a life. A real life. One that doesn’t involve waking up and going to school and having to deal with so many idiots.

Don’t even get me started on the idiots.

You know, when I first started this blog, I said that I wasn’t going to censor my life or sugar coat it. For the most part, I don’t, but I do find myself editing it. I don’t mention the more fragile parts that deal with the people close to me. I know they read this blog.

But when I get to college, let me tell you, I’m spilling it all. For whatever reason, that last sentence made me feel like Gossip Girl.

 

Anyway, I’m done with basing my self worth on what my friends think of me or don’t think of me. My life is about me. It isn’t about any of the extra characters that come and go. Sure, they may add to my character in some way, or make me see things from a new angle, but in the long run, my life is not about any of them.

For my friends reading this, don’t think that I’m writing this out of anger. I’m writing this from a big picture perspective. I’m a realist, as much as I love to imagine new things.

I see things in terms of years, not in terms of days or weeks. I could care less about my Senior prom. I’ve already lived out the fun of prom. I don’t care about a Senior trip. I plan on going to Europe. Forgive me for not wanting to go to Disney World. Europe is just better.

 

In conclusion, it’s my life and I’ll do whatever the hell I want to do with it.

 

Peace, love, and living for me,

Sara

9 comments :

  1. You kick so much butt, Sara. I'm proud of you!

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  2. You will go on and do amazing things!!! I felt the same way and you are not missing anything when you graduate early I know for a fact. I might be older than you but I look up to you for standing up for EVERYTHING you believe in and just being you. Maybe one day things will not be so crazy with all of this college crap and we might be able to actually hang out like we used to. Even though we never talk I still look at you like my younger, smart and must I say beautiful sister. I love ya buddy!! :)

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    1. Aw, thank you so much! I definitely teared up while reading that. You'll always be my amazing older sister! I love you :)
      ~Sara

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    2. Awwwwwww shucks lol and awwwwww it was not meant to make you tear up. I just don't tell you enough that I am amazed/proud of how you are and that I actually miss ya even though I don't talk to you that much. College is the worst for making you crazy because you get loaded down with school work when you have difficult classes, and then you are spending all your time on school work/studying :/ Well anyway keep up with all of the greatness. I love ya my democratic buddy lol

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  3. Your strength always amazes me! You go girl!

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    1. That means so much to me :) Thank you!
      ~Sara

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