I hate people

I realize that a lot of times on this blog, I've been very negative. I'm not sorry for it though. This blog is definitely not all sunshine and rainbows and glitter. It's the real stuff that seriously gets me pissed off.
Today in my history class, a guy asked my teacher, "If you had a son that was gay, what would you do with him?"
What would you do with him?
The teacher just looks at the kid and says, "What would I do with him? Well I've never been put in that situation before, but if I was I guess I wouldn't be happy about it, but I wouldn't disown him or anything."
Way to go Mr. _________ (I don't mention many names besides close friends on my blog)
Then the kid says, "Well wouldn't you try to make him be straight?"
Teacher: "Like I said, I've never been in that situation before but I'd like to think I wouldn't." or something like that, because as he was talking, a guy in the back who I'd always thought was sort of funny said, "You could always beat him until he was straight." His comment solicited several laughs and a few snickers.
Needless to say, I lost any respect I had for those individuals today.
Why are there always people like that? Why can't everyone just leave other people alone? EVERYONE is different from everyone else, so why do we pick at those differences? Is it just because they aren't us?
You've all for the most part kept up with my blog, at least I hope you have, and you know that I hate ignorance of any kind. One of my favorite comedians has a song called Rant and he basically talks about how some churches say God is all loving, but hates gay people. I'm sorry, but if that's what it means to be a Christian, you can count me out. I understand that some people say, "But it's in the Bible!" Yeah, yeah, yeah. Save it. There's a whole lot in the Bible that we don't follow anymore, but people choose to look at the Bible in ways that benefit themselves. And don't people realize that God didn't write the Bible?
For the most part, I hope I have readers that agree with what I write on here because it's really nice to know that I'm not the only one with the same views.
Why can't people be accepting? Why can't they walk a mile in others shoes? If I ever had a child that was gay, I'd probably love them even more. Think of the crap that they have to go through on a daily basis. Someone who thinks that people can choose to be gay, (which I think is total BS)  why would someone choose to be bullied to the point of killing themselves over people not agreeing with who they are?
Think about it, would you want to be called a homo or a fag for the rest of your life? I know I wouldn't. People have called me a lesbian before and it hurt my feelings a little, until I realized how strong any gay, bi, and lesbian person has to be to put up with that shit everyday.
And why does it matter? Why can't they get married to? It's not like we're going to run out of straight people. It's not like it's a contagious disease.
This is the segregation of our generation. We can either sit back and let it happen, or we can take a stand for what we believe in. Because if you ask me,

Here are some sites to support gay rights and to help end bullying.

http://www.thetrevorproject.org/ The Trevor Project, Preventing suicide among LGBTQ teens.
http://gayrights.change.org/ This is a social petition, sign it!
http://www.itgetsbetter.org/ This sites gives plenty of examples about how life really does get better for LGBTQ youth.

Chocolate, spiders, and alcohol

My brother planting a nice chocolate kiss/mustache on my dad's head.  

Today I went to a chocolate party with my mom. Yes, there actually is such a thing and it's probably the greatest thing ever invented... EVER.
So I filled my plate up with chocolate and everything else there just about and it was wiped out ridiculously fast. Don't get me wrong, I only went back up there to reload on some of this spicy chocolate dip that can go with anything, but when I came back to my seat, I realized that I had just completely stocked up again.
I sincerely went up there with good intentions, I was thinking all like, Yeah! A few carrots and some more dip..don't mind if I do... But then... I saw the cheese.
I am a sucker for cheese, and chocolate, so I got a few cubes of cheese. But then I saw the fondue dip.
This little deal went on for a while until my brain was all like, What happened to just a few carrots, Sara? Which is why I went back to my seat knowing that I had done the right thing.
At one point during the party, the chocolate person made chocolate martinis and was walking around seeing if anyone wanted unleaded.
She looked straight at me and said, "Unleaded or leaded?"
Me: "I'm fifteen, so..."
Chocolate lady: "Oh my gosh! I'm sorry! You look a lot older!"
Me to my mom: "That's the second time something like that has happened in the past three months."
Mom: "At least this one didn't assume you were a school teacher."

After the many fattening snacks were devoured, and my favorite kid to babysit ever (Megan, you might remember her from this post) had given me an awesome duct tape bracelet, we went home and I got in the shower.
Well, I was about to get in the shower when I realized two things:

1. It is generally not smart to leave a flat iron plugged in for very long periods of time
2. There was a gigantic spider in my tub.

Now of course since I have a fear of spiders, I'm exaggerating... just a tad. But I'm not kidding, this spider was the size of a half dollar. You guys know by now that I'm no sissy girl, I don't care about mud and dirt and painted nails or even snakes. But me and spiders? We aren't exactly friends.
So I screamed. Not like a crazy-lady-who-sits-beside-me-in-spin-class BFBCC (Burp Fart Battle Cry Combo), but it was a pretty decent scream. I ran down the stairs and told dad to kill it and got this response: "Man up and be a girl!" Yes, because that makes so much sense.
So he kills it, by washing it down the tub's drain.
The entire time I was in the shower, I was staring at the drain half expecting to see a radio active spider crawl up from the black hole and bite me. Of course, then I'd be spider girl which would be pretty freaking awesome, right? :)

Peace, love, and radio active spiders,
                                                         ~Sara

More pictures :)

My little brother :)

Dying flower

Winking

After about five hours working on and off with my five reports, one poster, and half a song for guitar class, I'm all done! Thank goodness! :)
I also decided that I am what you might call a procrastinator. I put just about everything off until the very last minute... It's not a good thing to be.
Which is why I'm making a pledge to never again wait until the day before a deadline to start on something.
By now you're probably thinking, why is this post called winking?
Today in lunch, my right contact was really drying out. Some of you may have noticed that sometimes I blink one eye before the other one? Well it's thanks to the stupid contacts. If it weren't for the fact that I look like even more of a nerd with my glasses on, I'd wear them all the time. So, as I was staring in the general direction of the line that people stand in to put their trays, I blinked only my right eye.
Then Kimberlee says, "Did you just awkwardly wink at that guy?" I looked up, and to my embarrassment, there is a guy walking up to the line giving me a weird look. Thanks contacts that refuse to be moist, thanks a lot.
To make matters even worse, on the way out of the cafeteria, I elbowed this other guy. Needless to say, I was feeling pretty darn stupid.
I that's when I decided to never go to lunch again.

Peace, love, and awkward involuntary winks,
~Sara

Tired

With the way school is, I feel like I have barely any time to myself anymore. Last night I would have loved to get on here and write a big long post about how everything was going with me, or maybe about some weird thing that I thought about, but no. What did I do? I played guitar until my back hurt so bad that I had to take an Ibuprofen. So I didn't have time to blog, or write, or make dubstep, or paint. Or.. maybe work on the five page report I have to do over Egyptian mythology.. Nope, I played guitar because I'm tired of being a idiot child in there! Sure, I can play a few chords pretty good, but when it comes to picking? Ha! Count me out. I'm sorry if my stubby little fingers can't keep up. I really do love that class though. There's tons of really cool people in there! Though there are a few that annoy the crap outta me when they turn guitar class into American Idol. Seriously people? Namely people from my own gender. Which is why I don't sing in there. Because I'd rather not be approached by people singing to me "Goodbye, Earl" by the Dixie Chicks.
Call me crazy, but I've already gone over the fact that I'm not a very social person. At all.
And believe me, there's people in there that have done just that thing.

All of that stress, plus the extra stress that I put on myself, is why I'm tired.
I'm tired ALL the time now! I'm, tired when I wake up, I'm tired in the middle of the day, and I'm tired when I go to sleep. Honestly, if anyone knows any good ways to not be tired, I'll take them! Besides energy drinks.. I hate them for the most part. :)

Peace, love, and lazy bums,
~Sara

Really cool genre of music... Dubstep :)

Thanks to Jacksfilms on YouTube, I discovered this awesome music! It's so different and I absolutely HAD to learn how to make it :) Granted, I suck right now, but I'm still learning! Here are some videos that will help explain what Dubstep and Drops are :) (The Drop is when the music goes from awesome, to OH MY GOD THIS IS AMAZING!) The first video is just telling you how to make it, the rest are just downright awesome Dubstep tracks :) I also threw in a few great Dubstep dancers :) How they do it, I have no idea... But they're really awesome to watch!
The great thing about this genre is, it can sound like anything. My favorites are the ones that stop right before the drop :)
                                                          Truly insane, this guy is awesome!

                                                                   How to make it
                                                     (the drop in this one is really cool)

                 The concept of this video is pretty dumb, but guns shooting dubstep music? I think yes :)

Whoa....

Spin class

If any of you have ever been to a spin class at a gym, then you'll really know what I'm talking about. If you haven't, then I'll have to paint the picture for you.
First of all, a spin class is where you get on those little spin bikes. They're sort of like recumbent bikes, only you can go a whole lot faster on them. Secondly, our spin class takes place in a dark room with a big mirror on one wall that reflects the little string lights that hang around it. Lastly, there is pretty loud upbeat music.
So now that you have the background, let's get back to the story.
I had never been to a spin class before today. My mom had gone last weekend but I had spent the night at Paige's and we didn't go to sleep until sometime that morning. Spin class is on Saturdays at 8:15.
Mom went without me and had a blast, so I figured I'd try it out. We already go to Zumba and even though I have all the coordination of a dying mule (first thing I thought of), and I love it! Which is why I was like, "What the heck, it won't hurt to try." WRONG! That class kicked my butt!
Which, coincidentally, is what my mom said to me right before we left and I was thinking, haha yeah right. I can take a bike class! No problem!
We walked in, got on our bikes, and started to warm up. A creepy old man was sitting on the bike directly across from me and he kept looking at me. I started to wish I'd worn longer shorts.
There was an old lady sitting right next to me. Now, when I say old, I mean that she looked around sixty or so but sounded like she was a ninety yer old smoker. But how, you might be wondering, could you tell what she sounded like when the music was so loud?
Here's how.
Every time we'd sprint or stand up for a few seconds (which felt like eternity), when we'd sit down, this lady would go, "AHHHHHH!" I mean she yelled it. The farther along we got into the class, the more annoying she got. She eventually moved on the the point where she was adding in a few extra sounds into her yelling to switch it up a little bit. "ARRRGGGH!" "YIIIIIH!" And, my personal favorite, "ARRGHH" *pause* BURP.
I kid you not, this little old women let out a belch that made me want to get off my bike right there and make her say excuse me. That, or get her a medic to find out what the crap was wrong with her. My mom finally figured out who was doing all of the carrying on, and after that every time she yelled out or let out the occasional burp, we'd look at each other and laugh. Nothing says family bonding time like laughing over an old screaming woman who had possibly eaten something that didn't quite agree with her.
Wow this is a long post! But hopefully it made you laugh :)

Peace, love, and lots of burping,

~Sara

People who annoy me

Tonight I realized something. By now, if you've kept up with my blog all this time, you've realized something as well: I realize a lot of things. Anyways, tonight i found out that my tolerance for annoying people isn't very good.
Don't get me wrong, I'm a pretty tolerant person, but when it comes down to people who are fake and just plain mean, I can't take it. We've all had to deal with them, those people that attach themselves to your particular group of friends and follow you everywhere. They make things really awkward don't they? Yep!
I also realized that girls in general annoy me, which is so funny because I am a girl! Haha.. I think I've had a tad too much caffeine..
It's not that all girls bother me, obviously. I have some really awesome girlfriends, but I'm talking about the stereotypical drama starters that go through boyfriends as fast as a woodchuck goes through wood. Like that saying? I just made it up. Ingenious right? Anyway, I had to "take a shift" with this girl that was hanging around us, but no one really liked. Now everyone knows that I'm anti-social. If you don't think that, then you've never seen me when I'm either by myself or with people I don't really know all that well. So when two other girls came up and noticed my lack of social skills, the first thing they said to me? Okay, wait a second. Let's back up to when they first walked up. Not only did these girls walk up and only say hello to the said annoying girl in question, they completely bypassed the fact that I was even there. Honestly, I could have cared less because I didn't really like either of them, but still. So what was the first thing they said to me?
"Why is she so quiet?" And actually, they said that to the annoying girl who I'll now call Aggie. I turned around and looked at them, smiled a little and said, "I just like being quiet."
And it's the truth! I really do like being quiet...sometimes. It gives me time to think. For instance, the whole time I was standing there, staring blankly at the football field, I was thinking about writing this very post.
Then they got back to talking about cheer leading and I tuned them out again. Until Paige walked up with cheese fries. That was good enough reason for me to pay attention again :)
Honestly, I don't understand why Aggie picked us. She was obviously only using us to get what she wanted which was to be able to go to the F-ball game. She was grounded under the condition that she could go places as long as a friend was with her. Don't ask me to explain, it's a really long story that would bore you to tears.
How many of us have to pretend to be someone we aren't just to deal with these people? I really wish that any of us had been brave enough to just say it like it is, but we weren't. What about you? How do you handle these types of situations?

~Sara

Drafts

I was looking through my posts and I was overwhelmed with how many posts have never been completed!
Most of them aren't published because I don't know how readers will respond to the content, but some of them just haven't been posted. And then I thought, how many other bloggers do the very same thing? Write an entire post and then save it, never planning on publishing it on the principle that some people might not like your views on something? Which is why from now on, I'm posting everything that I write on here.
I'm not holding back anymore because I really want to know if other people have the same views as me :)
From now on, expect to see even more controversial topics popping up on my blog :)

Embarrasing moments!

Today in lunch, we had nachos of all things. Which is why when I dumped the entire contents of my tray (excluding the re fried beans, they stayed exactly where they were) all over the floor surrounding my seat, I was thinking: Why was it not hot dog day or something?
The girls at the table next to ours looked up at me with disgust, as if I'd committed murder. Then again, those girls look that way no matter what, so I wasn't that offended.
One of the guys that we sit with walked up about that time and just looked at the mess. He looked a me and said, "Did you do that?" And I nodded. So then he said, "Sma-hoooth!" And then I wasn't embarrassed anymore. Well, mostly.
Then I had to go find the janitors and tell them what I did. So they started cleaning while I walked in and got another lunch. Ah, the beauty of being me.
I have embarrassing moments all the time, so it's hard to single out my most embarrassing moment. When I figure it out, I'll be sure to tell you though!
What about you? Have you had any embarrassing moments lately?